** picture by Pearl Eden** I know it’s been forever since I’ve written a thorough blog about whats been going on with me. Well, as alot of you may already kow, my fiance’ is gone. He is serving a three year sentence for something he did not do. I’ve been battling the depresion and loss of faith in our judicial system. I’ve been trying to figure out my next move, being a single mom (again) , and handeling everything a day at a time. I don’t live at home anymore. I moved in with Sir Lovette and everything was going awsomely until this shit. It’s hard for me to write about what happend without threatening to sue Lake county for this false arrest. I try to keep my head up for Chichi’s sake, but I wont lie, it’s hard…
I’ve been working alot to survive. But really, work has become a personal gettaway for me. It helps me keep my mind off all the bad things. I don’t hang out, I don’t mope about, I just live. As well as I can for the time being. I have to. If I lose myself, Chichi will go down too and I can’t have that. Especially since she and Sir Lovette are counting on me to be strong for us three. My body has been sick as well. I am finally better, but the stress has caused it to break down on my for 10 weeks. Again, all better now. I currently as living out of an extented stay hotel as well. Just me and Chichi sharing this room with a little kitchenett and a nice bathroom. i figure it would be the beest way to save money since all I pay is 681 a month (utilities and cable included). But If that were so, how am I always broke at the end of every week? How as I always struggling and praying to make it until next paychack two weeks away. It’s exausting. Still, I must be strong. I must go on. I have to make this work. At least until Sept. 2012 that’s when he comes home.
So anyway, I left for a while. I dislocated the heartsting that kept me connected to all of you. I thought it was the only way I would be able to really give all of my attention on this survival. But then I realized as I wrote about the tire takeover yesterday, that you guys are actually my strong point. It’s support from my readers and new found friends that is keeping my from going crazy. I miss you guys and need you all so badly during this hard time. Please forgive me for being gone so long.
Here’s my question for all of you. For every single parent who has been through this. For every wife or husband to a prisoner, married couple living together, same sex couples, everyone. Please, if there are anytips you can give me that will help my save money and survive, I am all ears. Seriously. I am in dire need of advice of all kinds. Financem support, grocery shopping, parenting, making the best of me time, everything. Thanks so much you guys. Here’s to my new found journey. Being a college mama dork, and surviving for the sake of my sanity.